i was cleaning out my bag today and found my ticket stub from last night when me and mike went to see Bourne Ultimatum (great movie) and i started thinking about how saving every single last one of those things used to be a ritual for me. In high school especially. When i was packing up for my move I found a small box just jam packed with ticket stubs; concerts, movies everything. As i went through them i tried to relive each, the thing was, half of them i couldn't remember the plot if the movie, let alone the people i went with. Same for the concerts. So why did i keep them? Did they hold any significance? Obviously not anymore, since i couldn't remember much about them. But at one point they did. At one point i had big plans for those ticket stubs or else i wouldn't have held on to them right? Or was it that some part of me just didn't want to let go? I didn't ever want to leave that day, month, year, time in my life. Everyone struggles to let go. Its just a fact. I think when i moved to michigan i kept them to keep me in touch with my philadelphia roots, i didn't want to let go of that time in my life. As i continued to go to movies, i started a whole new collection of ticket stubs from moments with my new michigan friends. Even when i started dating mike i saved a few.

but the fact remains, they are just peices of paper. They don't retain memories, expressions, or even stop time for a second. If i can't remember the person i went to see the movie with, how important could that person have been to me? When it comes to be being friends, there is no quota for movies, concerts, and special events. Those peices of paper are not going to remind you of a person, if you've forgotten they were there. The only significant information on a ticket stub is the date. But whats in a date if its already passed? if that time in your life has already passed?